[It was painful. Watching his younger brother go through this. It was outright exhausting just to see the other like this. Once or twice he had considered ending it all. Being the badguy if only so Dirk could be in peace. But he was selfish.

He would never be able to do that to his own kin. Bro would have had to be pushed so far to even actually even consider it an actual possibility.

So instead, he watched. And at times, it was too much and he grew more apathetic then he already was. He'd act like how he did when he had to take the verbal abuse from their parents many years ago, which was to say, take it and act like it was nothing.

But this wasn't nothing. He didn't sit by Dirk's bed for hours watching the other sleep because it was nothing. No, he wanted to be there whenever Dirk woke up. To check on him. Because he didn't know what else to do. He felt so fucking powerless, it was like a hot blade to his heart.]

Dirk. [He'd be here everytime. He'd never leave Dirk alone.]